Good Ole Job

I actually wrote this post over a week ago but never had a chance to post it with family here and then Tawny coming back.......

I usually don't pick random books of the Bible to read but last year as I was awaiting my CFP test results I found myself reading a chapter of Job each night. It was my pitiful way of trying to “prepare” myself for the high possibility of getting news that I had failed, again. I didn’t finish the whole book before I got my results back that I had passed. Hind sight is 20/20. Like Job, God had some work to do in my life that required my undivided attention. I know I will never fully understand the reason behind the suffering I went through, but I think some of it has come to light over time.

With my 30th birthday coming up in just a few days, I have of course thought a lot about how different my life is from what I thought it would be at this point. Reading the book of Job, though, couldn’t have come at a better time. When I read all that Job lost and how repulsive people thought he looked after having once been such a wealthy, well respected man, and how God had a purpose in all that, I realize how good my life is. Job trusted God through all his calamities. I trust Him, too. Then I’ve thought a lot about Katherine Arnold Wolfe and how strong her faith is in God right now through all her major health issues. How can I not be full of happiness that He has shown mercy on me and has given me great health and so much more?

Over the past year I have asked God a few times to guard my heart. I said, “God, I know you want all of me, and this is a rebuilding time in my life, so please don’t bring anyone into my life until you know I’m where you want me to be.” I know how easily I get distracted so I knew that if I was dating someone right now then I wouldn’t be able to give God what wants from me. The only thing I am really sure of right now is that He is at work in my life so I am trying hard to sit in the passenger seat and not mess His plan up.

He has answered my prayers more than you can imagine. I mean, there are like NO GUYS anywhere. But that surprisingly gives me peace, comfort and hope because I know that He is in control. He answered my prayers with that request so I know He will bring the right person into my life at just the right time. And when He does He is the only one who can get credit for it. Just like with the CFP, my failing it 3 times proved that it was a difficult task for me to do alone, but with God, it was possible. He accomplished what I thought was impossible and I give Him all the credit for it and He will do it again. Only He can bring someone into my life when it seems to me there are no “prospects” in sight. Right now, the only "men" in my life other than God are these two sweethearts and I'm more than ok with that....