Hello, Father

Today my co-worker has been on the phone with the priest at her church several times planning something so I keep hearing her say, "Hello, Father." I am reminded that I have my Father's phone number on speed dial and yet I don't call him often enough. In our reading this week (well, month) we read about how God's people don't have access to God themselves, they have to go through the priests and offer all kinds of crazy sacrifices that makes my head spin just reading about. The sin offering, the grain offering, the food offering, the peace offering, etc, etc. If I have acess to God why don't I call Him more often? And why am I not serious and focused when I do?

I think the problem for me is that I don't have something "tangible." When I talk to God a Blackberry, TV, computer, internet connection, or phone isn't required but everything else in my life revolves around those devices. If I literally had God's phone number on speed dial on my phone or email address I think I might actually have a better relationship with Him. Sad, isn't it. The way communicate with the people I care about the most is via email mostly so that is just what I"m used to doing.

My prayer life is really lacking so I am wondering if, in an effort to carve out more time spent talking to God if it is "wrong" of me to set up an email account for me to email God? With learning, people always say, "do what is best for you." If you learn better by visual then do that, if you learn better from hearing do that, etc. So, if I think it will strengthen my relationship with God, is it horrible of me to want to email Him? (Please post your comments on this, I'm seriously asking, it's not rhetorical).

I just finished reading "Crazy Love" and something that really stood out to me was him talking about his mother in law praying for HOURS a day and how they invited her to go somewhere and when she sounded less than thrilled about going they asked her why. Her reply was, "Well, if Jesus comes back is that where I want Him to find me instead of on my knees at home praying at home?" Who thinks like that???? I think it was like a play or something, it's not like they were asking her if she wanted to go to a KKK meeting. 

Now I'm reading, "Fresh Wind, Fresh Fire" by Jim Cymbala. From what I have read so far, the theme of the success of the Brooklyn Tabernacle is prayer. What part of Matthew 7:7 am I not getting? It's right there. Why do I spend so much time doing useless stuff like watching TV and playing on the internet and then wonder why my prayers aren't being answered? Am I really even praying? Do I really believe that I need to ask God for help in my life? If so, why don't I act like it?